Monday night
I’m convinced that hundreds of years of conditioning have turned humans against their societal needs. I’ve never been more conflicted or felt as paradoxical as I have lately. I would think few would admit it and even less would publicize it. And just as I have been conditioned, I’ll likely go back to my routine lifestyle after clearing my thoughts.
I’m only twenty four and have barely scratched the surface on what “life” is all about but I find myself not wanting the responsibilities of being an adult but also not wanting the ignorance of adolescence. Most people would agree but I don’t want a a job however, I want my time to be productive. I dread going back to school but am thirsty for knowledge. I want to travel the world but never leave home.
These contradictions seem logical but are nearly impossible to achieve. Who’s to make sense of this? Maybe its not meant to make sense. Maybe its meant to remain a “dream”. Or has society conditioned me to accept that these scenarios are unattainable?
Its hard to see a person stick to one thing for the majority of their lives, I guess that’s why we admire it. Finding one thing you love, whether it be marriage, a job or playing for one sports team for the long haul? I’d certainly be jealous of that.
Well, I got work in the morning.
